meltdown

Today I came to a couple of really big understandings.
I realised that my story of "not good enough" probably came as a result as feeling as a child that my parents didn't want me.
I've carried this idea of being unwanted throughout my whole life and I can see how it's played out in my relationships. I can see how each breakdown lead me to feel like I was somehow not enough.

I've seen the pattern, now comes the hard part- stepping out of it.